As very few of you will know, except those who have seen me in the last week, I managed to break my glasses last week. It was exceptionally vexing; I took off my glasses to put on eyeliner, dropped them two inches from my hand, into the sink, they landed awkwardly, and the lens cracked.
Due to financial constraints, I decided to not pay £200 for a new pair of glasses, and instead am wearing my old glasses from my South American days (the glasses that I bought in Lima, with
quisalan translating for me with the optician. I also decided to get my eyes checked, and signed up for disposable contact lenses, delivered by post, for £20 a month.
This means I'm now shifting back from being a 'girl with glasses, who wears contacts for special occasions' to a 'girl with contact lenses who wears glasses when she's pottering around the house'. And it's odd. I've realised how very differently I look at myself when I'm not wearing my glasses. I think I look prettier, whether I do or not. I think I look less dorky. It's very telling that I've got one LJ icon of me wearing my glasses, and that's this one, which I've photoshopped pretty heavily.
So why have I been wearing glasses full time for the year? Mostly because I didn't feel as if I could justify having an additional direct debit going out of my account every month for contact lenses while my finances have been so very up and down. Now I'm working again (and might be able to continue working part time for the forseeable future) I have a bit more disposable income, and can afford the £20 per month.
The contact lenses still feel kinda sore and odd at the moment, but I quite like the odd glimpses I get of my face.
I'm also pondering my odd relationship with glasses. I think it comes second only to my relationship with my weight, in terms of how it affects my self esteem.
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