The first day of summer...

[annwfyn]

...and I still feel odd.

I think it's that I've been running flat out for months now. Since March I've been in hospital, then ill and recovering, and since then I've just been working and worrying, and stressing and hoping to get through the rest of this term without screwing up my masters.

And now it's over I feel...I don't know what I feel.

I'm still feeling tired. Not physically tired (although lack of sleep over the last week is making me feel physically tired as well) but massively emotionally tired. I'm not snarky, or ratty anymore (which I have been for about the last eight weeks!) but instead I just feel crappy and tearful.

I think it's just exhaustion. Physical and mental and emotional exhaustion. I'm going to go and see my best friend, Gemma, tomorrow, which I'm massively looking forward to. I've known Gem since I was six years old. I love her to bits and I think she's someone I need to see right now.

Then...Australia.

Comments

No worries, mate

[melsner.livejournal.com]

Not to be all new-age, but I think you just need to give yourself permission to be tired and exhausted.

It's possible you worry too much. It's also possible that that is ironic coming from me.

I had a long weekend and then spent all day getting a lot done with eBay and cleaning. It turns out that there's carpet on my floor, under all the Torrid and Hot Topic bags! And I'm perfectly happy to be exhausted. It's a Good Thing because I know I got stuff done.

You've been through a lot and done a lot.

And Jez is prettier than you. But I'm not giving him my tuxedo men's thong. Mine!

Can you

[isalani.livejournal.com]

Get Jez to confirm or deny if he's running SLA this saturday please.

Re: Can you

[vilenspotens.livejournal.com]

He's not.

[lanfykins.livejournal.com]

I'm not snarky, or ratty anymore (which I have been for about the last eight weeks!) but instead I just feel crappy and tearful

I entirely feel your pain on that one. I spent a while crying last night because I felt like I was being a bad girlfriend for being tired and tearful.

There's a neat little vicious circle there, did you notice it?

Rest cures everything. And you have a nice holiday coming up :)

[cristobel.livejournal.com]

I feel really similar. I'm 3 months away from the end of a 3 year degree course. I have one final essay to write, and two practical 10 min exams. I feel totally shattered. And not tired for sleep, just drained and finished. I'm really struggling to write this last essay, because my degree result depends upon it, and because I've just ran out of energy.

much empathy and hope you feel better soon. I'm sure a holiday will do you the power of good. I'm going on honeymoon for a month after september, and I'm so badly looking forward to it!