String and sealing wax...
Dec. 5th, 2005 12:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
annwfyn1. My username is annwfyn for assorted complicated reasons. I wanted a name in Old Welsh, as I was trying to write a thesis about Romanitas in Dark Ages northern Wales at the time, and was quite focussed on it. 'Annwfyn' is the Old Welsh spelling and word for 'otherworld', which summed up something I was trying to create at the time - an otherworld, a journal space away from my then-main journal of winterthing. And most of the good words were already taken.
2. My journal is titled My Own Private Otherworld for the reasons explained above. It is mostly an elaboration on the name of my LJ.
3. My subtitle is nothing - I've never put that much up there.
4. My friends page is also nothing. Maybe Annwfyn's Friends. It's too eclectic to have a name.
5. My default userpic is a pic of me when I was about eighteen. It was my mother's favourite pic of me, it's a rather pretty sepia pic, my sister took it and it's nicely neutral which I feel a default pic should be. I use a lot of other pics tho.
In other news, I am currently meant to be in work. I am not in work, however, but am instead in Weybridge, which is why I am able to write in my LJ. Bless Surrey County Libraries and their liberal internet usage policy.
Why am I in Weybridge?
I am having a mental health day off work, which is to say I have called in sick for the sake of my sanity, and followed jez out to the small town he is working in today where I can wander around, read some books, and curl up in a library and try and get some university work done.
Why do I need a day off work for the sake of my sanity?
Well, that's a bit of a complicated story.
First of all, I'm beginning to get worried about my Masters. When I say 'worried', I mean 'getting a bit of a sick and panicked feeling inside my chest'. The reason for this is that I think I may have badly misjudged how much time I had, and how much time I was really available to work. That, and I think my work and myself may have communicated badly when I took this job.
You see, when I took this job I was told it would be two days per week, and occasionally covering for other people's holidays. What appears to have happened is that everyone has taken holidays over the last couple of months, which means I've been working full time a lot. In fact, for the length of my Hilary Term at Oxford this year, I've been working full time for most of it. Oxford terms are only eight weeks long. I think five weeks of that I've been working full time, and right now I'm being asked to work full time again for the last couple of weeks, and I am beginning to feel like it is leaving me behind with my work, and behind with my admin re: university paperwork. I've not made it to a single lecture this term (admittedly, I didn't have any compulsory lectures, and there were only four I was at all interested in and found relevent, but I would have liked to make them) and I'm just...
Argh.
Yes.
Stress.
The other reason I decided to take a mental health day is the rather pathetic reason that yesterday turned into a bit of a mental black spot for me, and I wanted to take some space for myself instead of staggering onward. I've also found this last week quite tough due topierot working in Portsmouth and getting in tired and grumpy, and increasingly poorly, which has been worrying me. It seemed like a good idea to go somewhere where I'd have someone to wibble at if I did feel crappy, and also where (if my brain continues to work) I could actually spend some time with my boyfriend, have some lunch, get on, and hopefully just generally unwind.
So, I'm here. Jez is working at the moment, and I am purging myself of miserable thoughts via LJ.
Oh, in other news, I'm not on LJ really at the moment. I'm mostly either in work, where I have no LJ access, or I'm at home where we currently have no internet access. The internet is theoretically arriving on Wednesday, but until then I'm offline, and so may not be reading LJ. If there is anything I should know about, e mail me (annwfyn@hotmail.com) or call me.
Any news?
winterthing. And most of the good words were already taken.2. My journal is titled My Own Private Otherworld for the reasons explained above. It is mostly an elaboration on the name of my LJ.
3. My subtitle is nothing - I've never put that much up there.
4. My friends page is also nothing. Maybe Annwfyn's Friends. It's too eclectic to have a name.
5. My default userpic is a pic of me when I was about eighteen. It was my mother's favourite pic of me, it's a rather pretty sepia pic, my sister took it and it's nicely neutral which I feel a default pic should be. I use a lot of other pics tho.
In other news, I am currently meant to be in work. I am not in work, however, but am instead in Weybridge, which is why I am able to write in my LJ. Bless Surrey County Libraries and their liberal internet usage policy.
Why am I in Weybridge?
I am having a mental health day off work, which is to say I have called in sick for the sake of my sanity, and followed jez out to the small town he is working in today where I can wander around, read some books, and curl up in a library and try and get some university work done.
Why do I need a day off work for the sake of my sanity?
Well, that's a bit of a complicated story.
First of all, I'm beginning to get worried about my Masters. When I say 'worried', I mean 'getting a bit of a sick and panicked feeling inside my chest'. The reason for this is that I think I may have badly misjudged how much time I had, and how much time I was really available to work. That, and I think my work and myself may have communicated badly when I took this job.
You see, when I took this job I was told it would be two days per week, and occasionally covering for other people's holidays. What appears to have happened is that everyone has taken holidays over the last couple of months, which means I've been working full time a lot. In fact, for the length of my Hilary Term at Oxford this year, I've been working full time for most of it. Oxford terms are only eight weeks long. I think five weeks of that I've been working full time, and right now I'm being asked to work full time again for the last couple of weeks, and I am beginning to feel like it is leaving me behind with my work, and behind with my admin re: university paperwork. I've not made it to a single lecture this term (admittedly, I didn't have any compulsory lectures, and there were only four I was at all interested in and found relevent, but I would have liked to make them) and I'm just...
Argh.
Yes.
Stress.
The other reason I decided to take a mental health day is the rather pathetic reason that yesterday turned into a bit of a mental black spot for me, and I wanted to take some space for myself instead of staggering onward. I've also found this last week quite tough due to
pierot working in Portsmouth and getting in tired and grumpy, and increasingly poorly, which has been worrying me. It seemed like a good idea to go somewhere where I'd have someone to wibble at if I did feel crappy, and also where (if my brain continues to work) I could actually spend some time with my boyfriend, have some lunch, get on, and hopefully just generally unwind.So, I'm here. Jez is working at the moment, and I am purging myself of miserable thoughts via LJ.
Oh, in other news, I'm not on LJ really at the moment. I'm mostly either in work, where I have no LJ access, or I'm at home where we currently have no internet access. The internet is theoretically arriving on Wednesday, but until then I'm offline, and so may not be reading LJ. If there is anything I should know about, e mail me (annwfyn@hotmail.com) or call me.
Any news?
