Bah. And Humbug

[annwfyn]

pierot is out on his training day.

He just texted me to let me know he wouldn't be back until 9/10 ish.

I wouldn't mind so much if I hadn't spent all bloody day on my own. My supervisor went home with a migraine and so couldn't meet up with me as planned, and I couldn't get hold of anyone else in Oxford. I've basically been wandering around between my room and the library since about 10 am today.

Wanted company. Wanted someone to talk at. And instead I am lacking anyone other than unreal people floating around on the internet.

I know this is pathetic, but by and large I am not too keen at being left on my own. Really. I mostly quite like having people around. I like having certain specific people around as well that I actually feel comfortable with. I suppose I could potter up to House of Doom, but I'm not sure if that would be comfy. I shall find out from Anthony when he is heading up and probably go up nonetheless.

Why don't I like being on my own?

I'm not sure. I'm sure I was better at it when I was younger. I guess I had a family structure then, not to mention school and a lot of activities, so while I liked space I was rarely physically alone. Entire days of no actual words, my voice box being unused have always been rare. Are always uncomfortable.

People.

I like people.