Cabin fever
Mar. 24th, 2005 03:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
annwfynApparently phoning pierot to discuss whether or not bell and book are necessary for an exorcism if you already have the candle, plus enough accelerant is a sign of cabin fever on my part.
He might be right.
It's odd. I'm in this place at the moment where my brain is working. I'm alive. I'm here. OK, I get giddy spells at times and get so sleepy and so tired very easily, but essentially I feel like Sally. I feel like me.
On the other hand my body is blatantly not entirely up to speed yet. I do get drowsy and tired very easily, while finding it hard to sleep because of the aches and pains. I do get giddy spells, and found leaving the house to wander around Surrey Quays withwildrogue yesterday really exhausting. I found myself getting scared in the supermarket because I'm so sore and tender - I know that getting jostled would be bad.
So, I'm probably not really fit enough to get back to living, or get back to normality. It does make sense that I stay in the house, get lots of rest, get looked after a bit. But my brain, which is feeling fine, is slowly going crazy!
I want out!
Last night, at about 10 pm, I found myself feeling horrendously claustrophobic. It wasn't the people around me. They were all great. It wasn't the game we were playing. It wasn't anything other than a really overwhelming need to get some fresh air and get away from everything. I want to drive places, go somewhere, take off when I feel like a little space. Physically, I don't think I really can, just yet, but goddamnit I want to!
*vibrates quietly*
Convalescence is definitely frustrating.
pierot to discuss whether or not bell and book are necessary for an exorcism if you already have the candle, plus enough accelerant is a sign of cabin fever on my part. He might be right.
It's odd. I'm in this place at the moment where my brain is working. I'm alive. I'm here. OK, I get giddy spells at times and get so sleepy and so tired very easily, but essentially I feel like Sally. I feel like me.
On the other hand my body is blatantly not entirely up to speed yet. I do get drowsy and tired very easily, while finding it hard to sleep because of the aches and pains. I do get giddy spells, and found leaving the house to wander around Surrey Quays with
wildrogue yesterday really exhausting. I found myself getting scared in the supermarket because I'm so sore and tender - I know that getting jostled would be bad. So, I'm probably not really fit enough to get back to living, or get back to normality. It does make sense that I stay in the house, get lots of rest, get looked after a bit. But my brain, which is feeling fine, is slowly going crazy!
I want out!
Last night, at about 10 pm, I found myself feeling horrendously claustrophobic. It wasn't the people around me. They were all great. It wasn't the game we were playing. It wasn't anything other than a really overwhelming need to get some fresh air and get away from everything. I want to drive places, go somewhere, take off when I feel like a little space. Physically, I don't think I really can, just yet, but goddamnit I want to!
*vibrates quietly*
Convalescence is definitely frustrating.
