Mood triggers
Apr. 11th, 2006 03:22 pmIt's weird how little things can just set you up - for better or worse - for the whole day.
Like today. I was fine when I left the house. I was motivated. I was chirpy. I get confused on the trains and wind up having to pay a £20 fine for not realising that my oyster card only words on tubes, buses and the DLR within London and not the overland rail.
I come into work feeling twittery and scratchy and grouchy because of this and I've been in this vile mood all day. I am completely non-motivated, I don't want to be here, and I'm convinced that everything is going wrong. I notice all my mistakes and I don't notice the stuff I get right.
Equally, I remember the days after I got my exam results last year. Nothing could touch me. Nothing could bring me down. It was all going to be fine.
I'm also pondering the very great truth of something
sea_of_flame said a while ago. It's surprisingly how expensive it is to work. I mean, I was earning nothing before this week. But I was spending very little as well. I sat at home. I'd eat a bowl of cereal, or something I cooked at home. I'd be careful with the ingredients. Basically, I was living on very little.
Working this week should be bringing in money. But it's costing me as well. I'm spending approximately £5 per day on travel (not including my special bonus this morning). I'm spending close to a fiver on lunch every day - just for a drink and some food, because nowhere can one buy a cheap sandwich around Vauxhall. I buy a newspaper or a magazine to read on the way home. And somehow my money seems to be trickling away. Bah. And humbug.
As some of you may notice, my outlook on the world is dark and gloomy today.
Like today. I was fine when I left the house. I was motivated. I was chirpy. I get confused on the trains and wind up having to pay a £20 fine for not realising that my oyster card only words on tubes, buses and the DLR within London and not the overland rail.
I come into work feeling twittery and scratchy and grouchy because of this and I've been in this vile mood all day. I am completely non-motivated, I don't want to be here, and I'm convinced that everything is going wrong. I notice all my mistakes and I don't notice the stuff I get right.
Equally, I remember the days after I got my exam results last year. Nothing could touch me. Nothing could bring me down. It was all going to be fine.
I'm also pondering the very great truth of something
Working this week should be bringing in money. But it's costing me as well. I'm spending approximately £5 per day on travel (not including my special bonus this morning). I'm spending close to a fiver on lunch every day - just for a drink and some food, because nowhere can one buy a cheap sandwich around Vauxhall. I buy a newspaper or a magazine to read on the way home. And somehow my money seems to be trickling away. Bah. And humbug.
As some of you may notice, my outlook on the world is dark and gloomy today.
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Date: 2006-04-11 02:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 02:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 03:23 pm (UTC)No. I'm prepay. I possibly should get a travel card, but most of the time prepay suits me fine as there are days when I will be commuting, but other periods when I don't leave Rotherhithe.
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Date: 2006-04-11 03:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 02:43 pm (UTC)Make a nice sandwich, good ham, cheese and salad... drink water. It's the only way to survive the costs of Vauxhall.
Oh, and overland train will sometimes accept Oyster Travelcards (so if you put a weekly travelcard on your oyster card), but not pay as you go Oyster. It's dumb and complicated. Ken should do something about it.
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Date: 2006-04-11 02:56 pm (UTC)In the specifications for the south west train franchise (up for renewal), the person who successfully tenders will have to accept oyster pre-pay. Unfortunatly I don't see it happening before then. :( It's a pain, as I have a 2-5 zone travel card, so I can use the trains every morning with oyster, but if I want to go into town, I can't just hop one stop into waterloo.
As for cheap eating in vauxhall, I don't know where abouts you are, but you could try the tesco or sainsburys?
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Date: 2006-04-11 03:22 pm (UTC)It may be partly me being a bit lost on occasion.
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Date: 2006-04-11 03:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 05:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 05:32 pm (UTC)However, you cannot use *prepay* on overground trains, even if there are readers at both ends. If I want to go the one stop I'd have to get a paper ticket.
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Date: 2006-04-11 03:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 03:19 pm (UTC)Ham and cheese sandwich? Urk...
For some reason (it's truly irrational) I have this dislike of packed lunches. There is something icky in my mind about food that has sat in Tupperware for a day.
When I'm well behaved I'll find a supermarket and grab something cheap, but I can't eat packed lunches. Pure pickiness, but I've been that way since school. I used to bin the packed lunches my mother gave me and just skip eating.
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Date: 2006-04-11 03:28 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-04-11 05:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 06:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-11 06:44 pm (UTC)In fact, to make things even easier, I'm cooking a double portion of whatever I have for dinner the night before and putting half of it in the fridge instantly to take to work. Home-made pasta bolognese, hot from the work microwave, is exactly what I need some days.
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Date: 2006-04-11 05:37 pm (UTC)no subject
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