Bah. And humbug.
Mar. 27th, 2006 12:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
annwfynToday, I am moping*.
It is entirely possible that this is because I only got about five hours sleep last night, and as such am not entirely functional.
I don't think I particularly want to mope endlessly, and so I've decided to go for my fairly usual way of cheering myself up, which is to write in depth about five things that make me happy.
1) I'm going to Australia in three weeks
Whatever happens, I am getting on a plane in three weeks time to fly to Hong Kong, and then on to Melbourne. I'm heading out to Australia again to seepierot's family, his friend Nic from university, the assorted Melbourne Cammies, and I'm heading there with a bunch of people I really like. Yup, jez and I are taking castorlion, ksirafai and molez with us.
We may role play a bit while we are out there, but we are also going to see the sights, eat nice food, possibly shop for corsetry (that may just be me and Ginnie, but as Melbourne does contain Vicious Venus, which makes the most wonderous things ever it may have to be done) and hopefully drive along the coast to find exciting and shiney things.
And it shall be nice.
2) I currently (theoretically) have a job waiting for me when I get back
If nothing goes wrong, when I get back from Australia I should have a temp job waiting for me which should last from the start of May, until I go back to university. It's at an environmental consultancy. I liked my potential boss when I had the interview, it pays well (OK, not wonderfully, but £10.50 per hour), and it is based in Green Park which is a very easy commute. It may yet all fall apart, but hopefully I should be starting that on May 8th.
3) I am not starving on the streets
I think this may be an important thing to remember. At the end of the day, I am not starving on the streets. I am not being evicted. I can eat. I can pay my rent. If the absolute worst comes to the worst I have a significant sum of money sitting in my savings account which is my inheritance fund. All I'm really fretting about with money is whether or not I should spend it, and that puts me in a much better situation than most people.
4) I have fantastic friends and a fantastic boyfriend
This is something I feel I should point out. No matter what, I've got a small group of friends who have been like a family to me over the past year or so. Jez looks after me, through the occasional tears and tantrums. A load of other people are always there to be nice, friendly, weather the storms, and provide the ice cream afterwards. Even the more geographically distant friends of mine are there through LJ to chatter, distract, be interesting and even give electronic *hugs* (which I never disdain) when required. I've got a load of wonderful people in my life, and for that I am thankful.
5) I still have A Plan.
Essentially, unless things go wrong, I am going back to university in September. This may, in itself, be slightly insane, but it will give me a professional qualification and get me into a career I really want. Right now my lack of job, my money worries - all of those - are all transient problems which can be overcome. I'm not drifting aimlessly. I'm trying to fill six months constructively. There is a light on the horizon.
And that is me. I don't think I intend to go looking into Despair's realm quite yet!
* I'm fretting about possibly getting a speeding ticket, screwing up a potential job with a temp agency, not having any money, having just got a credit card bill through, getting clamped over the weekend, having stupid body image issues, and feeling very overwhelmed by many things silly and rp related. I'm also tired, and emotionally overreacting to everyone I encounter.
It is entirely possible that this is because I only got about five hours sleep last night, and as such am not entirely functional.
I don't think I particularly want to mope endlessly, and so I've decided to go for my fairly usual way of cheering myself up, which is to write in depth about five things that make me happy.
1) I'm going to Australia in three weeks
Whatever happens, I am getting on a plane in three weeks time to fly to Hong Kong, and then on to Melbourne. I'm heading out to Australia again to see
pierot's family, his friend Nic from university, the assorted Melbourne Cammies, and I'm heading there with a bunch of people I really like. Yup, jez and I are taking castorlion, ksirafai and molez with us. We may role play a bit while we are out there, but we are also going to see the sights, eat nice food, possibly shop for corsetry (that may just be me and Ginnie, but as Melbourne does contain Vicious Venus, which makes the most wonderous things ever it may have to be done) and hopefully drive along the coast to find exciting and shiney things.
And it shall be nice.
2) I currently (theoretically) have a job waiting for me when I get back
If nothing goes wrong, when I get back from Australia I should have a temp job waiting for me which should last from the start of May, until I go back to university. It's at an environmental consultancy. I liked my potential boss when I had the interview, it pays well (OK, not wonderfully, but £10.50 per hour), and it is based in Green Park which is a very easy commute. It may yet all fall apart, but hopefully I should be starting that on May 8th.
3) I am not starving on the streets
I think this may be an important thing to remember. At the end of the day, I am not starving on the streets. I am not being evicted. I can eat. I can pay my rent. If the absolute worst comes to the worst I have a significant sum of money sitting in my savings account which is my inheritance fund. All I'm really fretting about with money is whether or not I should spend it, and that puts me in a much better situation than most people.
4) I have fantastic friends and a fantastic boyfriend
This is something I feel I should point out. No matter what, I've got a small group of friends who have been like a family to me over the past year or so. Jez looks after me, through the occasional tears and tantrums. A load of other people are always there to be nice, friendly, weather the storms, and provide the ice cream afterwards. Even the more geographically distant friends of mine are there through LJ to chatter, distract, be interesting and even give electronic *hugs* (which I never disdain) when required. I've got a load of wonderful people in my life, and for that I am thankful.
5) I still have A Plan.
Essentially, unless things go wrong, I am going back to university in September. This may, in itself, be slightly insane, but it will give me a professional qualification and get me into a career I really want. Right now my lack of job, my money worries - all of those - are all transient problems which can be overcome. I'm not drifting aimlessly. I'm trying to fill six months constructively. There is a light on the horizon.
And that is me. I don't think I intend to go looking into Despair's realm quite yet!
* I'm fretting about possibly getting a speeding ticket, screwing up a potential job with a temp agency, not having any money, having just got a credit card bill through, getting clamped over the weekend, having stupid body image issues, and feeling very overwhelmed by many things silly and rp related. I'm also tired, and emotionally overreacting to everyone I encounter.
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Date: 2006-03-27 12:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 12:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:03 pm (UTC)You're one of my best unreal friends in the world! I just never get to share ice cream with you. Maybe I should put in another category of people I love who I never get to see.
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:38 pm (UTC)Probably cooler than ninjas
*starts a fight*
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:31 pm (UTC)*sticks tongue out*
nah.nah.nah.nah.nah. NAH.
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:05 pm (UTC)Don't worry, things will work out, they usually do in the end.
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:13 pm (UTC)He he, Carebear stare!
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:23 pm (UTC)you always look lovely. and should you get one of those shiny vicious corsets I'm sure everyone will be falling over themselves to eat you with a spoon.
so there
=P
((By the sounds of it you've got a varient of what I always described as 'being twitchy' where everything and everyone is too too much. I recall it sucked donkeys in hell. hope it stops soon...))
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:26 pm (UTC)There you go.
As someone else who's stressed to buggery right now, I sympathise. Thanks for writing this, too - believe it or not, it managed to cheer me up as well.
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:31 pm (UTC)You're a Cylon? And does that mean that there are multiple versions of you out there?
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Date: 2006-03-27 01:34 pm (UTC)You're great and you have a fab life!
Date: 2006-03-27 01:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-27 01:39 pm (UTC)but not it wasn't transportation.
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Date: 2006-03-27 04:03 pm (UTC)They lock you away (with occasional stints of hard labour on the galleys) for five years.
Unless you try to run away, of course.
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Date: 2006-03-27 04:12 pm (UTC)1 July 1850 Transported 7 yrs for stealing 1 loaf bread , 4 lbs bread from Joseph Bell.
:P
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Date: 2006-03-28 06:00 am (UTC)