Mixed feelings and memories

Today would have been my Mum's birthday. She would have been 58 today.

I miss her so much.

Bah. Not a lot more to say. Today is also my birthday - I was born on Mum's 30th birthday - so it's an odd and mixed day. pierot is in Portsmouth and will hopefully be back by around 7 pm. I'm on my own in the house, theoretically working on my thesis. I've given myself one birthday treat so far and drove to Greenwich to go to Goddard's Pie Shop, which makes amazing rubarb crumble. I've had my rubarb crumble for breakfast, and now I'm pottering around feeling quite touched and happy at the number of good birthday wishes I've had over livejournal.

I also had e mails from riksowden, melsner and vilenspotens which was deeply sweet.

It's an odd day for me today. Bittersweet memories, odd feelings...I'm restless and awkward in my mind.

I shall try and not brood, but I fear I will be overly thoughtful. If anyone has anything they can think of to distract me, it would be more than welcome...

Mixed feelings and memories

Today would have been my Mum's birthday. She would have been 58 today.

I miss her so much.

Bah. Not a lot more to say. Today is also my birthday - I was born on Mum's 30th birthday - so it's an odd and mixed day. pierot is in Portsmouth and will hopefully be back by around 7 pm. I'm on my own in the house, theoretically working on my thesis. I've given myself one birthday treat so far and drove to Greenwich to go to Goddard's Pie Shop, which makes amazing rubarb crumble. I've had my rubarb crumble for breakfast, and now I'm pottering around feeling quite touched and happy at the number of good birthday wishes I've had over livejournal.

I also had e mails from riksowden, melsner and vilenspotens which was deeply sweet.

It's an odd day for me today. Bittersweet memories, odd feelings...I'm restless and awkward in my mind.

I shall try and not brood, but I fear I will be overly thoughtful. If anyone has anything they can think of to distract me, it would be more than welcome...